What The Heck Am I ???

At the time when im sad.. These few puppies came to my house.. its like a gift from GOD… to entertain me.. to comfort me.. watching their cute action will simply make me laugh and smile..

Two month passed and the puppies had grown up little bit.. but still a small puppies.. friend of mine bought some puppies food for them.. the last time i bear dogs is last 8 or 9 years ago.. This afternoon when i saw them.. i was thinking.. Wah.. dunno what will happen after these few puppies grown up.. Now they will goyang their tail when im back from class.. they will run to me… and im happy to see all those act..

But now every dream and hope were destroyed.. all three of them die crash by car.. i know its my fault also didnt take care of them properly(sorry david).. but.. they not suppose to die tat way.. damn.. good bye forever to all my lovely puppies.. haih..sad sad.. were then an angels?? Came just to make me happy and comfort me when im down.. now that im ok the just leave me like that?? shit.. what a plan.. haih..

sad Jing

This time..in my blog..I’m gonna discuss about a word… A famous word that used by many ppl in this world especially in Malaysia. Cibai~ is the word.. First of all.. sorry for all who felt offended by my word.. sorry.. Please leave now if you are under 18.. haha.. continue on if u really sure you can stand the mental’s attacks..haha.. jk jk.. ok..continue..

Often in my daily life, i use this word to release my stress.. more often than you all ever imagine..but hey, somehow it really works.. haha.. here the example..

1. First case, when the gal you love told you got a very nice guy who treat her so good even to the sligthest things… |||~~!!!! Cibai~~!!! will come out from my mouth.. then i will felt little bit better..

2. Second case, she message you telling you that she is now beside the airport counting aeroplane that took off..I will say So?? what so big deal..But her message continue on like this.." Im alone with him"… |||~~!!!! Ma Cibai~~!!! will come out from my mouth…then i will felt little bit comforted..

3. Third case, she message you on the next nite, telling you that she is now at the beach you once told her to go, listening to the wave’s sound you once told her you were listening.. and again with him alone… |||~~!!!! Ma  ke Cibai~~!!! will come out from my mouth… then i will felt little bit released..

4. Fourth case, she sent a sms to you sound like this " He is really so nice, I never met with guy so gentlement like this before, knew him for three month already(altho its just two month since she first come here, really dont understand how can she knew him for three month) he still haven show any weakness.. and keep on saying he is a nice guy… |||~~!!!!Nia Ma  ke Cibai~~!!! will come out from my mouth… then i will felt little bit pissed off..

5. Fifth case, when you ask her hows are them already, she just say, "getting better when time passes..just surrender everything, he really so nice.. " Guess what will come out from my mouth??

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Now i’m really Cibai jor……..~~!!!!!!!!!

then i will felt a little bit "going to hell" feeling.. haha.. shit lor.. say out so many foul words.. im sure i will need to pray 100 rosary to pay it back.. shit shit..

Ok friends.. Thats me.. Its been my daily routine to say foul words.. I still remember last time when i make myslf a resolution not to say foul word d, by replacing the C*B*i words with Zie Yai… which means "terung" in foo chow.. but after coming out here.. foochow word cant be use any more.. so my bad habit coming out again.. haha.. Practicing it everyday while playing DOTA.. example… Choi lan C*b*i, ask you dont "CHong" lor.. or Ma Ge Hai…Come help lar… Hero Missing tell lar… Ma de…

OK OK OK …stop all the foul words d… i guess most ppl say bad words.. at least thats what i heard here.. i will try to change but i guess its not really easy to change this Stresss-released habit.. haha.. So.. do u guys felt better after spitting those word out of your mouth? hehe.. and for those who surprise to see my post here.. i guess you really dunno me.. hehe.. This all for now.. bye bye…

JiNG

No more with my probrem and down feeling.. This time, I’m gonna blog about angels that i met in my life.. Do you ever had friends that you knew for a period with good impression and yet now you dont even know his/her whereabout?? Here are mine…

         First angels, when my family goes into bankruptcy condition, we move to a rural area somewhere from sarikei to sibu… We live with group of iban native and they are incredibly friendly, helpful, generous and etc.. I can’t remember much things there except for a gal who are 1 or 2 years older than me. She was my neighbour and always played together.. She like a sister to me and i appreciate her very much, but my mom and brother keep on saying that those day ‘I really like her"".. aiya.. anything lar.. too small to fall in love lar… haha.. cut short the story, My father fall sick, whole family go to miri to visit him, and in the way back, i remember i bought a comb(sikat)as a sourvenier to her..sadly, when we arrived home.. their whole family moved to somewhere else d.. until now i dont remember her proper name, face, or whereabout.. may be she also one of my friends now, just that may be we dunno we were those main character in our memory.. Her name ..err… sounded like "kia"?? or "RIA"?? haha..

        Second Angel, I wakil sekolah in ping ping when I was in year 4, 5. I met this guy in year 4 when i go to St. Mantin in "JAKAR"(a name of a place, dont terribly get it wrong).. Then i met him again in year 5 during our competition at Dewan Suara Sarikei. I remember we go for lunch together and get to know each other more.. eventually we become good friend, but we also a rival in ping pong.. because after our lunch.. I had a match with him.. official match.. Sadly and "paise’ly", his skill are much better than me… He try not to win much for first match but in second match he … he ., say sorry to me.. saying that his couch is standing there watching him.. jadi.. dia menang dengan cantik-nya.. after match, he quicky aproach me to apologize.. wah.. wat to apologize wor.. lose and win is the tradition of the game.. so we become close fren lor.. But year 6 i forfeit to play for school because i need to prepare for my UPSR… few frens blame me because i cause our school team cant compete.. sorry le.. i really dunno teacher will act like tat.. after the year 5 competition, i didnt have any chance to see him oledi.. hope he is still somewhere else around my network.. wei.. contact me if u were him.. haha..

wahh..too long liao.. still got few more.. but next time lar.. cukup lar for now.. haha.. bye…

Yo all.. Thanks for all your support and cares.. although not many left their  comments in previous post, but a lot turns out in msn to comfort me.. Many said, Love are not the only things in these world that i should care of.. Some said, i should put more attention on my study since its my last year d.. they hope i wont regret in the later days…. One turns out saying all my friends are too soft to me.. He said how come no one confronted me to tell me that my english were and are still sucks?? haha.. sorry lar.. but thats my standard.. Fews just kept quite and lean their support to me in silence.. and few unexpected frens turns out to comfort me. May GOD BLESS you all..

JiNG is not only BACK~!! but will keep on moving forward in a faster speed.. solving and facing some problem off from my shoulder and heart make it easier to move on.. To God my Father.. I will find your purpose in me.. I will obey your words.. Again, this blog were not purposely wrote to show off but to remind myslf of the resolution i made.. To all my friends.. I no longer needs your words of comfort and courage.. but still need your prayers so that I may cling to GOD forever in this road of my life.. The journey from now onwards will be different than the path i took before, open your eyes.. I might overcome anything now.. Thanks to GOD…

JiNG

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