What The Heck Am I ???

Hallow friends.. Here is my new post.. I wanna write something about "Let go when its time to let go" .. JiNG never knew how to let go one thing when he lost it.. He will took it seriously deep into his heart and this way always hurt him..

Well..recently i faced with MANY obstacles but only ONE lesson.. "you must let go when its time for you to do so".. I guess.. its time for me to really learn.. but how hard is it really? Is it possible for me to do so? To totally forget about my feeling towards something and yet still can be so close to it… If wan me to forget everything and not even remember her as fren.. i guess i can make it.. But to not love her and yet be her best fren, its something i really need to learn..

What make me think of letting it go?? Because if i didnt let it go.. It hurts both way.. I make myslf desperate, frustated.. and in the same time i will hurt her and make her felt uncomfortable.. Continue on like this will only brings bad results.. May be its really a histories for me.. May be I should really go for the one i love now.. All this while I always thought that if i cant let go the old one, its not fair for me to go for new one.. Sometimes even if i try to, it will fail because my heart is not there..  All ppl around you already continue on with their life and keep on moving towards their dreams, what will you archieved by standing there regreting about the past??

Recently my puppies dies.. the saddest one is not me, not my housemate.. its their mom.. the puppies mom, as i wrote this, she still crying outside..frustatedly.. finding her child.. keep on finding ways to come in our house for she though we did something to her child.. Last nite, she steal all our shoes and hide it in the bush.. No matter how much effort we try to sumbat all the lubang, she still trying her best to come in.. when we going out, she will look at us with somekind of eyes.. Me and my friends keep on saying to her " mei you liao lar ( no more d ) ".. study until uni standard , of coz we know she wont understand wat we say.. but we really hope she can let it go d.. until now.. im still felt very sorry for her.. its our fault that we didnt really take care of them.. sorry..

Well.. The Puppies’ mom really show the love of a mom.. i never see dog give such respond.. I can assure you, if you were here, you will feel ashame of yourslf and humankind somehow.. even a dogs love their child so much.. how come some moms just throw away their newly born son in the bush?? Even a dog appreaciate the life so much.. Dont we need to be ashame that we didnt appreciate our life enuf??

I know im declaring over and over again.. but Im really trying to move on with my life.. Pls pray for me.. I will let go.. Keep on moving forward.. continue on to be a good guy.. and continuing all my resolution… Thanks everyone.. Thanks GOD…

JiNG

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